Bring on the struggle...

I might not be where I want to be now... or where I thought I would be a couple of years ago, but atleast I am breathing. I will make something out of that.

P.S. 60 hours complete...

New Year New Life?

Not really....
I have done nothing to change though.
I guess I'm waiting on "something" big to come into my life and change it, but what?

I should just do it myself, I always end up doing everything myself. Why should this be any different? SPECIALLY when talking about MY life!

Wishing

I had always heard, be careful with what you wish for but never really put much thought into it. Now I know how true that is. Even the simplest wish… one you think is insignificant can come to bit you in the ass. That is exactly where I am at. I must admit, it could be worst, but it is starting to get to me.
Maybe I need to change my wish?

Masochist

There is no doubt in my mind, I am a masochist. It took a small deep cut in my right ring finger. I saw the blood. I felt the pain. I knew how yet I didn’t want to heal it right away. With that simple observation my life makes sense.
At times we are prepared knowing the simple solutions to our problems but we don’t always use them, sometimes sulking in the problem somehow feels like our only option. Is that just comfort zone of some sort? What do we expect, for someone to come help you out of it? At times the solutions are in our nose and we refuse to see them or make it happen.

Well till then here I am sulking.

trying a new thing...

I would like to start a journal. I started this blog as a class assignment but maybe I will use this for that purpose. I have been contemplating this for a while. This would be a way to track my life. At times it seems like I can’t remember anything, so I thought this would be a good way to express my feeling, ideas, or random thoughts and explore them later.
The idea of my thoughts being read, I should admit, is very intimidating. As much as an extrovert that I am, I try to keep my feelings deep inside. That has not been working very well for I feel like I can’t really catch my breath lately. (Other reasons may be to blame as well. ; ) )